This is a new thing for me I must say. For as long as I can remember, I’ve been striving to be popular. I never liked being alone. I’ve actually never lived on my own. I lived with my parents, then into a communal hippie house of 15 people, and then I’ve always had roommates until I got married. I’ve always told myself and said that “I love people, why would I want to be alone?”
Last year, I went for acupuncture because I had a lingering cold for 2 months, and she said something that really resonated with me. “We need to work on your earth. Focus on being grounded and close to the earth. Being alone is okay. Focus on your energy and protecting it, instead of relying on other peoples energy to thrive. Building your own energy makes you solid and grounded, closer with the earth.” Or, something to that effect.
Since that moment, I’ve been in tune with my energy. Noticing how if feels to be alone and am enjoying it. I still love my quality time with people, but I’ve noticed those who use up my energy and those who lift me up, and have made a shift in the amount of time I spend with those individuals. I’ve created boundaries with the ones that suck my energy and have started saying no to get togethers with them. I’m feeling calm, cool and collected.
